I started this manuscript with the description of my twin sister’s death and the aftermath of clinging to life in spite of my best judgment. During this period in my soul, I believed I would be better off with her or dead to the pain. Constructing this section brought back so much pain that I set the book aside for several months. After reviewing my notes of my spiritual explorations, I realized that I had been searching for Malinda. Then the book fell into place within two years. I was practicing psychotherapy so I did not have big spaces to write.